"2009" One of the most toughest year in my life

It's been months since my last post.So many things
happens in this year.Things that I've never expect to
happend.Some of my friend left school to continue study
in overseas.Schools are like divided to gangs,gang for
active people and gang for people that are not so active.
Life is so unpredictable,we would never know what's on the
next second.
I was picked to join the national service this year,I had to
leave school for two and a half months,during this time,one of
my best friend "Yoo Bin" had to go back to Thailand.My Mum
been through three big surgery.She suffered so much during that
time.The doctors had to cut off her voice box,because it was affected
by the cancer cell.She couldn't speak and can't eat like normal people.
Few weeks before I went to NS,one of my friend "Yu Vern" died in an
accident.Everyone was so sad,he was so young and very talented.
After I came back after NS,my Mum was very ill,my Dad knew that she
doesn't have much time left,so he brought my mum back to Penang.Just a few
day before my 18th birthday,she died quietly on her bed.I missed her so much,
really hard to accept this painful truth.
"2009" is a year that I may not forget in my whole life,
but what's happend could not be change.I had to move on
without my Mum.I had to made her proud.

Her favourite song.....

Its been two month already,I miss her......Would think about her before I fall asleep,I'm thinking about her when I'm doing my Algebra,when I'm lonely;she's in my mind.Its kinda weird to me that I miss a girl that I rarely talk to her when she was around.If I had the chance to meet her again,what would I do? What should I do? Can we be together?I'm I good for her?Is she the one that I've looking for?Will we had a good ending like fairy tale? Is this "Love" or just like two stranger pass by each other? Many kind of question just appear.

Last year I asked If she can duet a song with me,took me quite a lot courage to ask her.Plus the song are a love song.She told me that she's very scared to sing on stage,after the competition on last,she kinda scared to go on the stage;unless in a big group.Kinda disappoint,but It's a life breakthrough for me to ask her to sing.Sometimes I wonder that I'm I really in love with her or just admire her cleverness and talent.I heard her sis said that

Hope she's doing fine in Australia............I heard her sis said that one of her favourite songs are "Take a bow",It became one of favourite song after I listen to It.wish that I could listen to her singing again......

Jaylors music dairy

1. Drowning - Backstreet Boys
2. Take a bow - Rihanna
3. The Climb - Miley Cyrus

Lulu

Few weeks ago,Joshua's pet dog "Lulu" got hit by a car.Lulu is a good dog,she two days before she hit by the car,she came to my house and play with my dog "Coco".My dog rarely could meet other dog,when Coco saw Lulu,she keep barking at Lulu.But after a while,they become good friends.They were so cute,my dog was about 4-5 years old,Lulu was about few month old.Since the first day i saw Lulu,i didn't really get to know this little puppy,cause mostly every girls in school always playing with her.Really hope that i can see how Lulu looks when she grew up.Sure that she would be a beautiful lady.I took a few photo of Lulu while she is asleep,she was so cute,she use her paw to cover her eyes from the camera flash.

Early Edition

Lately i started to addict to a TV series,"Early Edition".I love the story,its very good.The story is about a guy call Gary Hobbson,his life changed after he keep a cat as pet.Every morning 6:30,he would open his door to take the newspaper,what's different is that the cat sent those paper and its tomorrows paper.He knows what happen tomorrow,with the paper,he saved many lives.He could just let those disaster happen,but he choose to save those people.It's never easy for him ,people thought that he is crazy,people shout at him,some even beat him.
I strongly recommend this show for everyone who visit my blog,its really a good show.



Jaylor today's good music

1."Crazier" Taylor Swift
2."A little bit longer" Jonas Brother
3."Sorry" Jonas Brother
4."You're not sorry" Taylor Swift
5."When you look me in eyes" Jonas Brother

Love?Or just pass by?

I dream about her yesterday,it was a very hot day,i fall asleep when i was lying on my bed.The first time i saw her is when i take diagnostic test in Pinang ace.She is a kind of girl that are quite quiet,although she is a quiet girl,she had a lot of friends.She is one of the most different girl i have ever met.She love to read books and do homework,kinda like "Otaku".
There is one time when we play truth or dare during study time,Samantha ask me who is the most pretty girl in school.I look around every girl in our study hall,i saw her sitting alone on her office studying.That moment,her name appear in my mind.I answer that;to me, she is the most beautiful girl in school.
After that day,every time i saw her,i had some kind of weird feeling.Feel terrible shy when face to face with her.I started to interested in her.......don't know if this is love?Never had this kind of feeling before.She's a quite good singer,last year we joined a singing competition in KL,i team up with Andre;she team up with her sis(Samantha).Me and Andre got the champion,it is really out of our expectation.Her team didn't get place in the singing competition,but they got second place in dancing competition.
Another thing that i like about her is that she play guitar,i enjoy looking her play guitar and sing.She was so pretty and had a cool aura when she play guitar during last year award day.
Last year,we did not talk much to each other.I look at her most of the time at the corner,wanna to talk to her,but i scared that i might make her angry or embarrass myself in front her.
Time passed very fast,a year passed.She is now in Australia studying commerce.I'm sure she is doing quite fine there,she is a very clever girl.
In my dream,i saw her standing in front of me.She was smiling.Her smile caught my heart like a trap.She is not the most beautiful girl,but she caught my heart.Some of my friends said i had a bad taste on judging a girls beauty.I don't wanna repeat the mistake that i made few years ago.I can't believe that i date a girl that are the type i hate most.
I miss her......i don't know is it right to fell in love with her.I don't know what am i to her,i don't know if she had feeling to me just like the way i had for her.Love is so powerful,it could made a person so deep into it.I didn't really said goodbye to her when she leave Penang.I miss the time when she is still around in school,a look at her is enough for me.



Songs of the day

1.True - Ryan Cabrera
2.Crush - David Archuleta
3.Fall for you - Secondhand serenade
4.Sorry - Jonas Brothers

Short Blog

Wee!!!!!This years mid would be the award day talent time.Me,James,Josh and Yoo Bin have planned to present a dance.Yesterday,we practice at my house.Except practice the dance,we play PS2,we play "Bleach";and i won the most,Wa HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!We went out for a walk around my neighborhood,play with dogs,we even had some boys talk.We had Mcdonals for dinner.Sad...happy time always pass very fast.Tomorrow had to go back to school again.

I've made my first demo

I'm now in KL,my sis house.She got a old piano in her house,i play it almost everyday.Then i suddenly felt like wanna to produce a song,its quite fun making a music demo.I hope that i did not write a song that already exist,kinda sound like people's song.This song does not have a lyric yet. Please leave some comment about this demo.Thank You!!!Until next time. Signing off.

My First Blog

Mostly all my friends got a blog of their own.I kinda enjoy watching people's blog,i can see different people moving on in their everyday life,stories and a lot.First i wanna introduce myself,my name is Joel;but i use the name Jaylor a lot on the internet.I'm going to be 18 this year.

The picture on the right side are one of my favourite picture,it was taken at 2008, at my school's award day.The guy wearing glasses on the right is me.XD

Well,that's a little intro about me.Please forgive me if i made a lot of grammar mistake,i was very poor in grammar.

Signing Off